You know… being human is funny sometimes. Take me for example; I can walk around being the Reiki Rocker, being all Zen and shit and still forget that I am actually a Human ‘Be’ing. Why? Why can’t I always be Zen, give advice and be the Spiritual ‘Be’ing that I aspire to be?
I have to constantly remind myself that without the Yin and Yang in this world I would never be able to see my spiritual leaps and bounds. According the Wikipedia – ‘Zen emphasizes rigorous meditation-practice, insight into Buddha-nature, and the personal expression of this insight in daily life, especially for the benefit of others. As such, it deemphasizes mere knowledge of sutras and doctrine and favors direct understanding through zazen and interaction with an accomplished teacher.’ So what does that all mean?
Being Buddha doesn’t come overnight. Like the definition exclaimed, ‘Rigorous meditation-practice’. That means every chance you get, you practice. When you are not practicing it is easy to forget and thus, we fall back into old habits, old programming. Every day I have to remind myself of this.
So why does the headline of this blog say, ‘Getting Butt Hurt’? Because, I let down my guard and I let someone get to me. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does it’s like I’m going back to square one. Everything you’ve learned, all of the meditation, seems to be for naught. And that makes me even spiral MORE backwards because I tell myself, “David! You know better. You know this shit. Geez!”. So what happened?
I got a super shitty review. When somebody says this about you, “He has a rather dull and monotonous voice and on top of that he sings false. Especially in the song “Karma Machine” it is hopeless, his wining voice sometimes makes me want to cry as well.” First, I wanted to crawl under a rock, Second, I wanted to pummel the bastard. It really did a job on me yesterday and I just needed to be alone.
How long did it take me to get over this?
It took less time than you would imagine really. A lot of it is because of my meditation practice. Some would take this to heart, living this negativity day in and day out, for years. For me, and because of my rigorous meditation and Reiki practice, it is very short lived. My problem is that when it’s happening I think it shouldn’t be happening at all.
Silly Human! 🙂
As I stated above… I see a lot of people who do take this kind of thing to heart and it destroys their whole month, or year, or even worse… their life! They recede into a hole, afraid of criticism, wanting to be liked by everybody. Let me tell you something… When you can be ok with being loved or hated then you’re on a good path, because not everybody is going to love you, and on a positive note, not everybody is going to hate you. And the biggest question would be, ‘Why do you need to be loved by everybody?’ What is missing inside of you? Why do you not have faith in who you are? And if you really want me to get all deep on you…. Who was the first person in your life that told you that you ‘can’t‘? Because that is what it all comes down to…
We are usually hurt most by things that someone told us a long time ago, and we relive it when it happens again. Please remember this though… we are Human. So forgive yourself and move on. K?
If you would like to get over some of your deep issues, hit me up for a Reiki Session or two. It works. It’s energy and we are ALL energy.
Namaste,
David
